by Shawn on February 20, 2012
Senior year of college I had the recurring experience of being incredibly frustrated by my mind taking off as if being chased by wild, hungry, people-eating demons with halitosis.
It was terrible. I’d spend the briefest of moments in that soft, luscious state of mind that is somewhere between waking and sleeping.
As soon as my mind realized that waking consciousness was within reach, Yahoo! And off it’d go galloping to all the things I would do today! things to remember! things to think about! Loud. Fast. Out of control.
A few times, it literally brought me close to tears. I had NO control over it. I had no idea what to do about it, had no tools at my disposal to call it in check. I was victimized by it.
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by Shawn on February 19, 2012
I’ve been exchanging email with someone who has a great relationship, has much to be grateful for and generally recognizes that he has a good life.
Except.
Ah, the pesky “except” clause. A good life except that (he wrote) “It’s a struggle, and I don’t feel I’m in my right place. Is it the way I’m thinking? or what I’m doing? I get depleted far too quickly, and find the moments of joy too far apart. Do I keep my head down and just get through this?”
And then:
“I have decided to push ahead on a business venture that has caused me much anxiety. Am trying to push beyond the fear, there is much value in the product and potentially could make some money.”
Hung out in a crammed VW Beetle lately?
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